specific monsters

we are specific monsters

to those we choose, otherwise

charming, magnificent, gracious

human beings, laughing & kind.

or however else we think ourselves;

and when we cast off these thoughts

letting some specific person have us:

the real monster underneath:

then intimacy couples with hate,

for why else would i ever be so cruel

as to let you meet me thus?

we choose our victims carefully

from those we love the most--

here, beloved, now witness me

and i will be a monster to you.

October 2021